Thursday, December 8, 2011

Thank You

Good Morning, Friends.

Thank you all so much for all the kind words of comfort and love.  I feel my head getting a little bit clearer.  The sadness still feels so heavy.  The mornings are the hardest (like right now) and  I just can’t seem to swallow the lump in my throat these days.

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Obviously, Monday and Tuesday were the worst days for both Justin and I.  I have to admit, I have never felt this kind of sadness in my life.  I loved her so much.

Tuesday, I could have easily laid in bed all day, but I made myself get up and we met my Mom for lunch and then went over to Justin’s Sister’s house.  We needed something positive and she had just the medicine we needed….

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Sarah, and her boyfriend, rescued these 4 month old brothers.  They are blue heelers and are so full of life and happiness that it was contagious!  It was just the break that Justin and I needed.

Tuesday night I went to my Grandfather’s visitation/funeral service. 

When I woke up yesterday morning, I knew I needed to exercise and eat.  I wanted to feel good.  I wanted to get the heaviness of everything off of me a bit.  I needed to start the day with a good laugh. There was only one place to go: Damn You Autocorrect.

It doesn’t matter how deep the sadness runs, that stuff is hilarious!  It was just what I needed and the next thing I knew I was lacing up my shoes and heading out the door.

I did 20 minutes of running and incline walking on the treadmill and then headed over to the germ machines.  I did three sets of 10-12 reps:

  • leg extension
  • leg curl
  • bicep curl
  • tricep extension
  • lat pull down

I was going to do more but there were two old men sitting on the chest press and row machines side by side talking about their highschool days, so I left.  I knew something rude would probably spill out of my mouth if I opened it, so I walked away.

As I walked up to my truck to leave, I realized the key fob I was carrying in my hand was to our car not OUR TRUCK!!!  @#$%^&*!

You all know our situation by now…..Justin and the three people that we assist were all snuggled into bed asleep and I had to call and break the news that he’s going to have to load everyone in the car when it’s 9 degrees outside and bring me a key.  Not a good time.  So, I called my Mom and she rescued me instead!  THANK YOU, MOM!!

I made myself eat some oats with protein powder when I got home.  I didn’t feel like eating, but I could not go another day surviving on cookies and candy.  The only real meals we have been eating have been from restaurants because neither of us feel like cooking. 

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After my Grandpa’s burial, we all went to my Uncle’s and ate chili and salad. 

Justin is the best.  Anytime he hears me crying, he finds me and wraps in a big hug and sometimes even cries with me.  We both loved her so much.

These two loved her also:

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I am soooooo glad we have Sara!  If we had to leave Piper alone in this house with Brutis….

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I may never leave the house again!  Of course, Sara is more afraid of Brutis than Piper is, but I feel they would come to each other’s rescue if he cornered one of them (which he likes to do!).

For dinner, I fixed brown rice noodles, peas and turkey.  I seasoned it with olive oil, Mrs. Dash Tomato, Basil and Garlic, and added some parmesan cheese to the top.

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Our friend came over and hung out for a bit in the evening and then I snuggled up in bed and crocheted before falling asleep.  We both have been so tired this week.

I am ready to get to the gym again this morning.  It helped so much yesterday.  I thought I was going to cry on the treadmill, so I upped the speed.  Taking those deep breaths to run that fast took the urge to cry away. Not to mention I had to concentrate on moving my feet so I wouldn’t fly off the back of that thing!  I’m ready to feel some more of that!