Friday, August 12, 2011

It’s All Blurry Now

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Honestly, I hardly even remember yesterday.  There was a lot of sleeping, a heating pad, Aleve, some skittles were involved, chicken noodle soup, pretzels, I think I ate a bowl of cereal at some point, chocolate, Tetris, Bossy Pants (Tina Fey’s book).

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It’s all a bit foggy.

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Justin played golf yesterday as he was feeling much better.  I was left to be miserable by myself and was NOT happy about this.  I moped and pouted and mean things spouted from my mouth before he left.  Classy.

I wanted him to stay home. But not talk to me  Or make any noise at all.  Just be in the other room in case I needed him.  I wanted a partner for my misery so every once in a while he could stick his head in and say “I’m so sorry you’re in pain, can I get you anything?” And I could squeak back (because I would be too weak to have a full voice), “No, I’m okay, this will pass.”

It was probably good that he left.  And that’s why we have been married for 13 years.  Justin knows when to take care of me and when it’s in everyone’s best interest for him to go play golf.

Today is a new day!  I still feel a little run down, but much better than yesterday.  Aaaahhh the joys of hormones.

I want to go back to March, when I still had a menstrual cycle but no cramps.  Is a competition diet and two-a-days what it takes for my body to glide right through a menstrual cycle?

Justin asked me that yesterday morning in the middle of my pity party.  “What’s harder, two-a-days or this?”  (then my head spun around in circles and lasers shot out of my eyes) “Both” is what I barked back.  Super mature.

The truth is I HATE feeling this way.  I don’t mind being run down for a couple of days and resting.  It’s the cramps and the hateful attitude that I dislike.  This month was a little worse than it has been in a while.  My hormones are STILL a little out of whack since the competition.  A lot of that is my fault because of my diet.  I know I will get it figured it out, but it’s been almost three months and I’m still trying to “figure it out”!


  1. Aunt Flo is visiting me in a few days and I turn into a sourpuss too lol.

    Feel better


  2. Girl, my TOM has been all sorts of out of whack since competing. Sometimes it lasts 8 hours with no pain, sometimes a day with a little pain and last month it hit me like a ton of bricks. Cramps, dizzy, nausea, headaches, chills and SEVEN days... OMG... I hate not ever knowing what to expect, is it coming? Is it staying? So crazy. I feel your pain.

  3. I laughed SO HARD about the spinning head and lazer beams.
    Im so sorry you have to go through that. Are you on birth control or just the progesterone? Is it helping any? Does it make it a little better? I wish yours got better for you after you lost the weight :( Mine sure did...

  4. The Brown Family: That's not good news. I am still very regular, now that my TOM is back, but I was hoping to ditch the cramps. Sorry to hear you have such a rough time as well.

    Vann: I just do Progesterone that is made in a compound pharmacy especially for me. I am done with the fake stuff (Progestin), not that it's bad, it's just bad for my body. My TOM actually did get better (no more throwing up or running fevers or having crazy PMS) but the cramps are still hanging tight with me.