Tuesday, February 23, 2010

59 Days Out!

I had a great day yesterday! These pictures are after doing the Insanity DVDs!! I wanted to capture how sweaty I was, but the picture only show my wet hair!! I love the sweat I get from those dvds. My whole body has a sheen because I'm so sweaty!! Love it! My little abs are trying their best to peek out! Come on out abs!! It's like that last little pooch around my belly button will not go away! The muscles are under there, I can feel them, but I can't see them!!

I ate pretty good yesterday! My carbs were oats, sweet potatoes, an apple, whole grain bagel, a snack size bag of BBQ chips; proteins were protein powder, egg whites, chicken, turkey; veggies were broccoli. I also had some peanut butter and high fructose corn syrup...I mean jelly on that whole grain bagel! That meal is why I had some BBQ chips as well. The bag of chips was 140 cal and it was so good with the PB&J. It was such a treat! I did an Insanity dvd that was an hour long yesterday and then a 15 minute Abs DVD! Wow! It was awesome! I didn't lift any weights, but that dvd was a lot of legs and then of course the abs dvd was a lot of abs! I highly recommend the Insanity dvds for anyone that is stuck in a rut with their cardio and wants a killer workout! All of the workouts are awesome and some are only 20 minutes and then a couple are up to an hour long. I am so glad I bought it!

Today is 55 minutes of cardio at home and then off to karate for an hour of working out with the girls and then an hour of regular class! I need to get back into the routine of lifting weights at home! Seeing these progress pictures sure motivates me! I really want those abs out by April so when I get my transformation pictures taken I have abs!!

I will try to take my normal progress pictures this Sunday. I want to see if there have been any little changes even though my weight hasn't changed in a couple of weeks. So I need to get some good cardio and training in before then!

Okay, gotta go hop on the treadmill!

Monday, February 22, 2010

60 Days Out!

SNOW DAY!! I woke up feeling GREAT this morning! Which is weird because I have half a foot of snow outside my window and it's grey and freezing cold outside! Seems like an excellent day to be lazy, but I think I'm going to get a lot done today (poor Justin)!

We ate great yesterday! That's probably why I feel so good this morning!

I need to chant that to myself when I am about to eat something crappy! I made a potato and vegetable soup yesterday. I used white potatoes instead of sweet, but I still feel good about eating it! I haven't had a white potato touch these lips in a looooong time! It was delicious! It was warm and hearty, perfect for a cold snowy day. I also made some homemade corn bread to serve with it! A lot of carbs for one meal, but portion is key! And I ate it early in the day. My body burns through food pretty fast these days. If I even think about a carb after about 6pm, I'll be up all night! Carbs are energy, so I have to eat those early in the day and early evening! It really cuts down on late night snacking because I know the consequences!

Other than the potato/veggie soup, which I ate for my 3rd and 4th meal, I had oats and protein, egg whites and an apple, and chicken with brown rice and peas and carrots. I love oats and protein powder! I am missing my chocolate/caramel protein powder though. Once we are through this gigantic bag of chocolate protein, I am putting in my request for chocolate caramel! I also love chicken with brown rice, peas and carrots! One of my other favorite meals is brown rice, peas, carrots, a spicy tuna packet and raw peanuts. All warmed up so the tuna and peanuts are hot too and it's soooo good!! I think I'll be eating that today! Since I am listing my favorite foods now, my last all time favorite is chicken, roasted broccoli, roasted sweet potatoes....with olive oil!!! Yum! I love all the foods I just listed way more than pizza or chicken wings or tacos! Well, maybe not more than tacos, but it's a different kind of love! Because I feel better when I eat that stuff, but sometimes it's the preparing it that I get lazy about! Which is so ridiculous, because it's not hard to throw frozen broccoli on a cookie sheet, drizzle with olive oil and salt and bake...it's the sweet potatoes...oh those delicious little pains in my butt! I peel them because they are so ugly and dirty, I don't want to eat the skin, so I peel them, then cut them, then toss them in olive oil and salt and throw onto a baking sheet....see how many steps! :) Sometimes I make a big batch to eat on all day, but they are best fresh out of the oven. Justin makes them sometimes for us, but he leaves the skin on and it grosses me out! You can not scrub those things enough for me to think they are clean enough to eat!

Okay enough about food! And the sun is coming out, Yay! I am so glad my good mood is back! I was in a little funk! I won't be working out with Diana today because I am not getting out and driving around in this crap unless I absolutely have to! I am not a fan of driving in the snow! The highways are probably fine but it's getting out of and into my neighborhood that is scary because it's so hilly...no thank you! I'll lift weights on my own today. Which brings me to my next thought....I actually feel like lifting weights on my own today! I need to get in 55 minutes of cardio as well. I can't decide if I want to do an Insanity DVD or the cardio workout I did last week with the treadmill/spin bike/stairs. I have also been thinking I need to consider doing two cardio sessions a day for a couple of weeks since I was in my little funk the past couple of weeks and didn't make any progress toward my goal. I just have the hardest time talking myself into that second session! I really should do it though!

Okay, well, hope everyone has a great day! I'll be enjoying the beautiful snow from INSIDE today!

Sunday, February 21, 2010

61 Days Out!

Man, where has my motivation gone? I just don't have the drive and enthusiasm I had. I am not liking it!! I haven't gained any weight in the past 2 weeks, but I haven't lost any weight either! Ugh!

I have been going to karate and getting in good workouts in there but my cardio at home is pathetic. First of all, I don't feel like doing it at all and then IF I get up enough energy to drag myself down to the treadmill I am not doing the killer interval workout I was doing. I did do one really great workout last week, the spin bike, treadmill, stairs thing, but that was the best cardio workout I did at home. I haven't done an Insanity DVD in weeks. And lifting weights at home, yeah, not happening at all!! And I'm just hurting myself by doing that because then when I go workout with Diana, I am DYING!! What is the deal? Is anyone else feeling this way?

I am so ready for spring! I am ready to feel that energized feeling that spring always brings!

Hopefully this little funk I have allowed myself to settle into goes away because I am not done, I have 20 more pounds I want to lose and 10% more body fat to get rid of!! So, if anyone out there finds any extra energy lying around, send it my way! I am in need of an energy boost!!

It's snowing like crazy here again and while it's beautiful, I'm over it!! :) I want to run outside again so bad. Please go away winter. I will happily welcome you back next year, but you have over stayed your welcome for this year!!

Friday, February 19, 2010

63 Days Out!

I have been so tired the past couple of days. I know it's because I haven't been drinking enough water and not eating enough food. I had an awesome workout with Diana on Wednesday and am so sore! We did all upper body because for my morning cardio I did 15 minutes of running on the treadmill, 15 minutes on the spin bike, 15 minutes of running stairs and then cooled down with 5 minutes of walking on the treadmill. It felt so great, but my legs were toast by the time I got to Diana!! So we did chest, back, arms and abs. It was great, hard, but great!

Yesterday I did 2 hours of karate and was spent for the rest of the day! My karate girlfriends and I ran all our charts with exercises in between each one. Man, it was hard. Myself and another one of the girls have the Insanity DVDs so we try to come up with sequences based on those DVDs and mix it up and we came up with a hard one yesterday! And it was mostly upper body, which was already tired from the day before!! It felt good to workout that hard though and then in regular class we ran all our katas which is a workout in itself, much easier than the first hour, but it's a workout! I am still tired this morning. Not finding the energy to do my morning cardio! And I have a training to go to this morning until Noon so unless I find some motivation this afternoon, I won't be doing cardio today!

My goals today are to drink a gallon of water and eat all my meals. My body is too used to being fed every couple of hours and when I don't do that I get cranky and tired and then eat whatever is in site! Plus my skin is all oily and broke out and I'm not going to the bathroom like I normally do (I know! TMI!!). I should have stayed on the competition diet!! Now that I am off, I have forgotten how to eat. I need to get refocused and get back to healthy meals with one cheat meal a week. I feel the best and my skin and body functions the best when I eat like that. Plus, I have the energy to get all my workouts in when I have enough fuel!

So, today is all about getting my food prepared so it's there when I need it and drinking as much water as I can to flush this crappy feeling away! ha! Oh, and I have to remember to take my vitamins!! I feel much better with those helping me out!

Monday, February 15, 2010

67 Days Out!

I had a great weekend! Justin and I had a Valentine's date night on Saturday and I did not have to sit and watch him eat and drink! It was so fun just to relax and not worry about every morsel I was putting in my mouth. I also had a couple glasses of wine. Fun!

I had way too many cheat foods last week. I guess I needed to get that out of my system! I feel like I have said that in my last couple of posts! Ha! So back to a healthy diet this week. The great thing is though, I have my metabolism kickin' so I didn't gain any weight from last Monday! I am pretty surprised! Yay for a working metabolism!

I didn't get progress pictures taken this weekend. I'll probably just wait until next Sunday now. That will give me time to get the salt out of my body and reduce the bloat!! LOL! I ate some things with dairy and gluten in them this past week so my body is not too happy with me!!

Not much else to talk about. Today is cardio, clean eating and working out with Diana. Hope everyone had a great weekend and a Happy Valentine's Day!

Friday, February 12, 2010

70 Days Out!

I am still doing the count down to April 23rd because I am still counting down to a new me!! Maybe not a new me, but a more fit me!! Ha! I had one more day of cheat foods yesterday, but now it's definitely out of my system because I don't feel so great this morning! I feel so much better when I am eating good food! So that's all behind me. This morning is 45 minutes of cardio, weights and a clean diet. I still love the chicken, sweet potato, broccoli thing but now I get to put olive oil on my sweet potatoes and broccoli....yay!!!

I am feeling so much better about where I am now. I was not at a good place mentally last weekend. I know my menstrual cycle plays a big part in messing with my head but I couldn't get out of the fog. I feel like a weight has been lifted!

Diana, my trainer, is such a wonderful person. I was pretty nervous to talk to her on Wednesday about what I had decided. We have gotten pretty close and she was so excited for me and has been working so hard to help me. I felt like I was letting her down. As soon as I told her, she was like...Ok, no big deal, on to the next goal....she said a lot more than that, but you get the point. She was so positive. She's just like...let's use the next 11 weeks to get you to your original goal and to an healthy manageable place where you can maintain on your own. She's been there, she's competed, so she gets it. She told me about all the melt downs she's had and that it's normal and figure girls are some of the craziest girls out there!! LOL! We talked a lot about the obsessive feelings I was having and she totally understood that too. She also said, it would only get worse! Ha! I just love her. We had such a good talk!

I think I'll continue to post pictures too! I still want to see the progress. Diana and I are planning on doing a photo shoot in April and sending in a pretty spectacular transformation story to Oxygen magazine!

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Re-evaluation of Goals!

Hello Blog Fans!! haha!

I have been absent for a few days while I figure out what to say to my blog! I had a melt down while in Arizona which caused me to re-evaluate my goals when we got home on Monday. While we had a wonderful time in Arizona, my head was constantly filled with obsessive thoughts about my diet, and gaining weight, and losing body fat, etc. Being on my period did not help this situation!! But the worst part was, I was causing everyone around me to think about what I was putting into my mouth too. I did not like that. It is so awesome that I have such a supportive family. Everyone has been totally on board with the whole figure competition thing and doing whatever they can to help me stay on track. But, I was starting to project the obsessiveness I was feeling onto others and I don't want to be that person. I don't want to be around people and all I can think about is what I am eating, and what I am going to eat next and what others are eating and then make them think about what I am eating, etc.

When I started this transformation almost one year ago, my goals were to be in the best shape of my life and to have the best 3rd degree black belt test of my life. I also said, since I'm going to have the body of a figure competitor, why not hop on stage and go for it. I was kind of thinking the weightloss/bodyfat part would be a gradual thing and the getting on stage would be the cherry on top. It is sooooo much harder than I thought. I don't want to be the person I am becoming. I don't want to obsess about food and body fat percentages. Like I have said in previous blogs, I already have a war going on in my head everyday with food and with the competition prep diet, it has only gotten worse. I am trying to get to an healthy place with my food issues. I am afraid, if I continue down this path, then come April when I no longer have Diana telling me what to do, I am going to go on a major binge.

So.....the figure competition has been taken off the table for now. I have Diana for another 11 weeks. We are getting back to the original goal of a fabulous tranformation and me being in the best shape of my life! I want to get to 15% body fat, but this will be done with a healthy, balanced diet, cardio and weights. This doesn't mean I won't continue to work hard, but the diet part is going to be more relaxed so that by the time I quit working with Diana, I have a solid hold on my issues with food and can continue to live an healthy, balanced life style.

It was kind of funny on Monday, when I made the decision that I didn't want to do the figure competition any more, I still ate the competition diet that day because I didn't know what else to eat. I have only been on the diet for 4 weeks but it has become so much of my life that I couldn't remember how I was eating before. Then the excitement set in that I don't have to do that and so I have eaten a couple of the meals I have been dreaming about! French toast, tacos, chips and salsa, etc. So, back to a more healthy, balanced diet today! I got all of that out of my system!

It was hard for me to let this goal go at first. I am used to setting goals and reaching them. But, it's okay. That's the fun part about life is that we can make choices about how we live it and we can change our minds and make different choices. I am not saying that I will never do a figure competition. There are a lot of them. So, when I get my body fat down, I will revisit the competition thing. But the whole needing to get to 10% body fat in the next 11 weeks was making me a crazy person and I don't like that. It would be nice to get to a place where it would only take me 6 weeks to get ready for a competition. I think I could do that. I did the diet for 4 weeks, I think I could have done 2 more weeks, but the thought that I had 11 more weeks of this sent me over the edge!!

So that is where I am. I think I will keep this blog and keep the title the same. Like I said, I am not completely over the thought of competing, my journey is just going to take a little longer!!

Saturday, February 6, 2010

76 Days Out!

This will be a quick post as I don't feel so great this morning. It's that time of the month. I have cramps and a bad attitude about it this morning! I did so well yesterday until it got into the night and we were playing poker and I ate some M&M's!! My menstrual cycle (MC) wanted them, I couldn't help it. I honestly felt like I could cry I wanted them so bad. So I ate them and some cashews and almonds. I know it's bad and that's probably why I don't feel so well this morning! Damn it! I have all kinds of food I could have eaten, but I wanted M&Ms! Everyone was trying to stop me and help me and offering other options, but there was no turning back at that point. So that is done and today is a new day. I don't feel like doing any cardio though. I feel like laying around like a lazy pig and soaking up the sun! We'll see what happens.

Other than my little episode, I did my 45 minutes of cardio yesterday and ate all my meals. For dinner, we went to a greek restaurant for my FIL's birthday. I did not eat any appetizer even though I felt like I could eat the table! I had some of Justin's salad when everyone's salads came and then I had a salad for my main course. It was huge and I was so hungry I felt like I could have eaten the whole thing, but I didn't!! I ate all my meals yesterday and I was still so hungry by dinner. Being out in the sun all day and we walked quite a bit yesterday too, so that may have something to do with it. Still no alcohol and I must say I very proud of my self for that! Damn those M&M's! Damn my MC!! I had cramps all day yesterday but laying out in the sun seemed to be good for it and taking ibuprofen all day helped too! So more ibuprofen and laying in the sun today! Today should be no problem for food. We are eating at home all day today and my food is already fixed so I'll be on track today!

That's it from Arizona! Only a couple of day left and then back to cold Missouri! :(

Friday, February 5, 2010

77 Days Out!

Hello from Arizona! I know I said I wouldn't be posting until Monday, but I have found myself with some time so I thought I would hop on here and update! Justin and his dad wanted to go eat breakfast at a restaurant that I would definitely not be able to eat anything at and Jane, his stepmom, had to take her dad to the doctor, so I decided to hang back and get my broccoli cooked for the day and eat my 9:30am meal! I got up and did my 45 minutes of cardio and ate my first meal of oatmeal and protein powder!

When we got in yesterday, we went straight to a mexican restaurant that we go to every time they pick us up from the airport. I knew we would be going there so I made sure and got in both of my morning meals before we boarded the plane so I would not be starving and make poor decision! I had bought tuna packets to stick in my purse so I could eat that on the way to the restaurant, but, of course, they are still sitting in our refrigerater at home! :( It all worked out though. I ordered a house salad with no dressing and a chicken breast with pico on it. I asked for no butter, oil, cheese, rice or beans. It was great! I had a great meal! It was a little hard to watch Justin and his dad eat the chips and salsa, but I am focused, so I wasn't even tempted!

Later in the day we planned our meals and went to the grocery store. I got everything I will need to eat while we are here! Last night everyone had steaks, I had a chicken breast and then we all had asparagus and sweet potatoes. I did have some cashews and almonds because I let myself get too hungry. I'll have to be more on top of that today. But no alcohol, crackers/cheese, chips/salsa for me during happy hour! I had crystal light and 2 dill pickles! Oh, and the almonds and cashews!

I am supposed to do back and biceps today and that is not going to happen. I did my cardio and we are going to the pool for the day! I'm not going to beat myself up about that. I feel good to be keeping my diet on track and getting in cardio! Maintaining a competition diet while on a weekend getaway visiting family is not easy. So I feel like I am doing good!

I am off to eat my next meal! Can't wait for everyone to get back so we can get to the pool and lay in the sun today!

Thursday, February 4, 2010

78 Days Out!

I won't be posting again until next Monday as we are going to Arizona for a long weekend trip to see my inlaws! Can't wait to go! Sunshine and heat (hopefully!!)! I had a great day yesterday. It was busy, but fun. Did my 45 minutes of cardio on the treadmill. Worked chest and triceps with Diana. I'm pretty sure I got all my food in but I wasn't as good as having it at the right times like I normally do. None the less, I ate what I was supposed to and the amounts I am supposed to! I got some new clothes for our little trip yesterday. What a great feeling shopping is now! Last year, at the time, I was a size 14....this year a size 4/6!! It's so fun trying stuff on!! It's very motivating too!

A couple of years ago, Justin and I were shopping at my favorite store and I saw this wrap skirt. It basically was like a huge scarf that you just wrapped around and tied on the side.....one size fits all! I was asking one of the sales people about it and she was like....oh here, I'll show you....and she started to wrap it around my waist and it was too small. And not a little too small, like suck it in and make it tie....it was WAY to small....like there was no way the ends were going to even touch!! I was so embarrassed, and Justin felt so bad for me. So, yesterday I am trying on a pair shorts and the sales lady was like....oh wait we just got in these cute scarfs that you wrap around as a belt and tie on the side....when she brought it, I felt my chest get tight, I got a little hot, and thought....oh no not again....but this time it wrapped right around and made a big fat bow on the side because there was so much extra scarf!!!! I was thrilled...I bought it....and probably just because of how it makes me feel! Justin was so happy for me! He said....Where's that wrap skirt now!! I just love him!

Today is 45 minutes of cardio....then on a plane! So I better get going. I will still be doing cardio every day and sticking to my diet! There are no cheat meals until April 23rd! Wish me luck!

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

79 Days Out!

Another pound bites the dust! I think I have officially left the 150's behind! I am only seeing 140's on the scale now, high 140's but I'll take it! 135lb is the goal I have been after this past year and as of this morning I am only 12 lbs away! That's not very much! Yay! It has seemed so far away these past few years, but now it's in my sights!! I'll be 135lb before I know it! Heck even the 140's seemed so far away a year ago and now I'm there! I am so proud!

I feel great this morning! Yesterday I did an Insanity DVD for my 45 minutes of cardio. Then I went to karate for 2 hours. When I was running my self defense charts I did a exercise combo from the insanity DVD (different from the one I did last week) in between each chart. I was by myself until 1/2 way through the charts and then another girl jumped in and boy am I glad she did! She kept me going! Then our instructor came in and saw the exercise combo we were doing so he had us incorporate it into the next class for our warmup! I kind of felt bad for everyone else that didn't see it coming! It was not easy! It sure feels good though! I used to be the fattest one in the class and now I am showing killer exercises to everyone!! A lot can happen in a year!

My diet was great yesterday. I quit listing my proteins, carbs and veggies because they are the same every day! So, if you are just starting to read this and want to know what I eat, you'll have to read back through previous blogs!! LOL! I could tell the calories had been cut, but I wasn't starving! I think I am really going to see some great results this week!

My legs are still sore from Monday's workout! Today is 45 minutes of cardio and then chest/triceps with Diana. Looking forward to it!

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

80 Days Out!

I start my 1400 calorie diet today! I am excited. Well, maybe excited is not the word. I am ready! My weight is just barely budging so I think cutting calories is just what I need to get the ball rolling. Plus, receiving my new diet plans from Diana feels like I'm starting something new and fresh and so that brings with it a little spark of excitement. She sends me several so I can have options!! LOL! I have them all printed out and picked out the two I think I'll like the best! I know I have only been doing a super strict comp diet for a month, but that is one long month! The same thing every single day! I try not to think of how long I still have to go. I am still on the one-day-at-a-time train! If I think about the fact that I still have 3 months of living like this, I instantly get tired!!

I did my 45 minutes of cardio yesterday. I did the treadmill intervals I have been doing. It felt so great! I worked legs and shoulders with Diana. It was brutal (but wonderful!). There is nothing like working out with that girl!! It's fun to watch myself in the mirror doing some of the exercises and seeing muscles pop out that I have never been able to see before!! LOL! This morning I am going to do an Insanity DVD to mix things up and then go to karate for two hours.

My diet was perfect yesterday. I did have cravings though. I drank some crystal light and chewed gum to curb that! It was so easy in the beginning! I have to stay focused. I have control over what I put in my mouth, so I just can not let myself lose it and eat something bad. Everything counts!! Justin starts a cutting diet that he got from his step brother next Monday and I can't wait! Right now he is doing a high protein/high fat/low carb diet, so eggs and bacon are being cooked every morning! I have never really cared about bacon, but man, it sure smells good!! Oh, and he cooks steaks....mmmmmm. I have had very good self control, though, never having even a bite!! It really helps seeing Diana twice a week. She gets me centered again. Just looking at her reminds me why I am doing this, why I am working so hard! It's going to be worth it to have a body like hers!!

Monday, February 1, 2010

81 Days Out!

I start my 45 minutes of cardio today. I am ready! Bring it on treadmill! I am loving my interval thing I am doing. It's so hard, but I feel so great when I'm done! The last time I did it I did the 6mph at 10%/4mph at no incline intervals for 20 minutes and then switched it up and did 5mph at no incline and 4mph at 10% and alternated that every minute. So it was a little bit easier but still challenging.

I am thinking of doing an Insanity DVD Tuesday and Wednesday morning to change it up a little. We are going to Arizona for a long weekend so I will be using a treadmill there for sure for my early morning cardio. Hopefully we can get out and do some hiking during the day.

Yesterday was a good day. I didn't do any exercise. My diet was good all day. I did have cravings though, but I just made some Crystal Light and that seemed to take care of it. Oh, and I chewed some gum.

It's such a small world! I paid my invoice to the lady that is going to do my spray tan for the competition and noticed her address was in the same zip code as us. So, I mapquested her address and SHE LIVES ACROSS THE STREET!! I emailed her and she called me and we just couldn't believe it! The best part is, she tans out of her house, so I can just walk across the street to get my tan in April! I might have her spray me pretty soon too, just to see what I look like and see if it helps me see my muscles any better.

So, today is 45 minutes of cardio and working out with Diana. I am going to see if we can add shoulders to my leg workout. I keep not doing that workout during the week.

All is going good. I am still feeling really good. My energy level has been up all week, except for Tuesday. I need to prepare myself for that since Monday is leg day. It takes a lot out of me, so I need to make sure all my meals are prepared in advance and that I drink lots of water and take my supplements!

Okay, that's all for today. Gotta go jump on the treadmill! I think I'll do what I did on Saturday with ending with the 5mph/4mph intervals for the last 20 minutes!