Tuesday, January 19, 2010

94 Days Out!

Yesterday was kind of an emotional day. The fact that I didn't lose as much weight as I thought I would really got to me. I was on the verge of tears all the way down to the gym to work out with Diana. I spent most of last week very sore and very tired and just kept telling myself it was temporary and it would pay off on the scale. Well, IT DIDN'T! I was pissed yesterday. Diana put me through an awesome leg workout which zapped me physcially and by the end of the workout, I couldn't stop a few tears from coming. The good thing is, she understands. She told me I need to trust my body, trust her and trust this process. It's not going to come off fast, in fact we don't want it to, because we want to retain as much muscle as possible. She also said, at this point, we are less concerned with the number on the scale and more concerned with what my body fat is. I need to be losing 1-2%BF/week. We will measure it every 2 weeks. So that's good. That is not something I can obsess about. I have calipers and could measure it at home, but it would probably be different than Diana's number, so I won't be measuring myself. It was a great workout and I felt a lot better the rest of the day.

I found some other blogs about girls competing and read those yesterday. I also figured out how many weeks until the competition and printed out a countdown poster to hang on our fridge, so I can cross the weeks off. I did that for nursing school and it really helped to visually see progress! I am 14 weeks out and that is not that long!

Also, Justin and I started another one of our weightloss bets. Whoever gets to their goal first gets 2 days off. Last time we bet whoever lost 20lb first got a week off, but that's too much pressure right now! We both have a goal we want to get to by the competition and doing the other person's job for 2 days is not such a big deal! Sorry, Justin, I'm going to win AGAIN!!

So, besides doing legs with Diana yesterday, I did 35 minutes of steady state cardio and ate a clean diet. I was having cravings yesterday so I drank some orange crystal light and it was yummy! It was like dessert!! Took care of my thoughts of anything else!

I am going to try to relax about the number on the scale. It's so hard. That is such a motivating factor for me. When I get up in the morning, the first thing I do is weigh myself and when the number goes down, I am so excited! I have gotten used to letting that set my emotions for the rest of the day. I have to get past that. I think I have said it before in this blog, but this is going to be such a mental journey for me. I am going to be learning so many things about myself. Like this lesson...I am addicted to my scale!!! I have to learn to let that go. I AM making progress!

Another fun thing Justin and I have started doing these past couple of days is planning the weekend of the competition. We are thinking we will go to the after party to see what that is like. Saturday night, I want to go our favorite french restaurant and have Boullibaise (seafood stew). We can't decide if we want to get a sitter and spend a night out either Friday or Saturday. It's fun to think about that weekend. These weeks leading up to it are going to be hard, but that weekend is going to be so fun!

This is all going to pay off in the end. No matter what happens at the competition, I will be in the best shape of my life and I will have learned so much and grown so much along the way.

I am going to believe in myself, believe in Diana, and believe in the process!!!


  1. hey! crystal light is a good snack when i want something sweet! I drink peach mango green tea! It's their "metabolism" version. :) YUM!!!

  2. You're my HERO already and you still have 94 days left!

  3. Thanks Janet! It's a great feeling to have your support!

    Vann, it's funny that I liked the Crystal Light yesterday because the last time I tried it (a year ago probably!), I didn't like it because I thought it was too sweet! Now I want that sweetness!! Yum! (and I appreciate your support too!)